Someone I know from artschool is going to write his (graduation) thesis about LADY GAGA XD He's also painting her for months now! LMAO. Gotta love artschool XD

And I can't knit for the life of me, aargh! But I'm going to make a HUGE circle scarf :D

Okay does ANYBODY has a link to a GOOD, working torrent of "500 days of summer"? Please? XD

I've been wanting a headband like this one for ages! I love the 'twenties feel' it has.. you know? I know, I might look like a greasy hipster but idc I loooooove this headband <3 To me it's just so classy and aah awesome! I wanted to make one on my own because I couldn't find it anywhere! So I went to H&M because I know they have headbands like that there, and flowers, so why not get some stuff there and make it myself? But then it was already there, finished and all! :P Yay!

Now.. after like an hour of thinking about it, I'm going to hop under the shower because my hair is SO GREASY (I've only washed it last Thursday!) and it looks really weird. I'm going to a party tonight and going out after that and I want to wear that headband without my hair looking like a dirty hipster mop! D: I just really don't feel like taking a shower LOL but I know it's for the best :P My hair smells like.. grease, henna & smoke all in one, I guess :( Well the smell of henna will never go away, only after a month or so and that's the time that I dye it again, haha!

Also, last Thursday I quitted my 365 days project. Why? Well I realised that this is actually just the same as art school: the duty to be creative every day. I had to take a picture every day and somehow I stopped liking it. I've been through 4,5 years of art school and I've had enough of the NEED, the duty to be creative! Plus everyone and their grandmother is doing a 365 days project so I just felt like someone who followed the hype and I also hated that. So, yeah, it lasted for 72 days and now it's over :P And it feels good, actually. I've been thinking about it a lot the last days before I made the decision, because I felt like a huge loser quitting. But then I realised that I'll never be as good as other people and that it will only be more frustrating if I continue. Also, as I've said before: I needed a freaking break from being creative! So all in all, it's a good choice :)

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I'M LOOKING HOT YES YES! Hahaha dying my hair (and eyebrows!) with henna.. lol my eyebrows look like crazyyy! I already rinsed them out and they're okay, don't worry haha!

Oh and I posted yesterday's pictures (with the fooooog and stuff!) at my blog! So if you want to see them just go there :P

& Uh I think that's about it? Wanted to say something else but I FORGOT. @_@

(there was a trailer with english subtitles but they did really weird things with the sound.. they sort of 'blopped' the talking out and it was really ugly and ugh :()

Aaah I just saw this movie, which was on my list for a long time, and I absolutely loved it. I normally really don't like Dutch movies, because they're most of the time so banal and vulgair, or just really boring, or whatever. I just don't like them! But I remember a few years ago I saw this trailer in the cinema and I was so intrigued with her white hair, haha. Somehow the title was always in my mind, it certainly made an impression on me. So I downloaded and I must say that this is now my favourite Dutch/Belgium movie! Heck, it might even be one of my favourite movies!
The story, the actors, the cinematography, the music were all so perfect!

The story is about a young, blind man (or maybe even a boy?) who finds a new soulmate in a albino woman. She is hired by his mother to read him stories. She doesn't like to be seen by people, because she's always told how ugly she is, but with him it doesn't matter, because he's blind... he won't see her. Eventually they fall in love, to him, she's the most beautiful person on the planet. Her scars are like snowflakes to him, to him she looks like the icequeen in the story she reads him all the time. But then a miracle happens: there is this new operation so he can see again. Afraid of what he might think of her when he really sees her, she fleds..

The story is a bit of a fairytale itself, really! And so is the cinematography, gosh, it's snowing almost all the time, the scenery is so pretty.. and so are the images. I love it when he's in his own imaginary world and everything is more bright and pretty <3

Aaah can't stop talking :D Anyway, I know most of you won't see this movie because it's Dutch and that's annoying and stuff... but if you ever want to see a Dutch movie, please please go see this one!

And here are some screencaps under the cut! I might post this on my blog as well so don't look weird if you have a 'double' post on your friendslist @_@

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Ugh, I feel like shit, just like yesterday. I think I'm getting ill or whatever: my throat hurts/is swollen, my muscles aches (specially my neck and upperback, ugh), I have constant headaches, I'm HOT the whole time, sweating my ass off and I feel like I have to puke the whole time, but that's just because my throat feels so weird. It's nothing major though, I mean, like I said, I think I'm GETTING ill... but I still feel shitty :(
And I now I still have 2 days off and I have 2 days (okay 3 days or whatever) left to travel for free with my student travel cardddd, but I feel too shitty today I think to actually leave the house :') Wanted to go to the beach, might do that tomorrow, it's too late now I think (I need to travel longggg). I don't even know why I want to go to the beach.. yeah to take some pictures maybe.. but of what... water? Lol idk.. SIGH. There are lots of places I've could have gone to... oh well. Now I'm going to work on my grandparents photo album (ugh do not want!) and go to school to upload it (they don't have software for mac @_@) and maybe that I'll just jump in a train after that..

WE'LL SEE.

God I don't even want to eat D: That basically just means I'm very, very sick hahahaha.

Oh and I saw Brideshead Revisited last night and idk, it was okay, I guess. It was so tragic though, ugh. AND MATTHEW GOODE, HOLY SHIT, IN MY PANTS PLZ. Haaaa I didn't care too much for Ben Wishaw this time although I love him, he was just too... gay :P I liked his teddybear though..
But ehm yeah idk, I'm intrigued by the story so I might read the book but the movie it self was a bit.. slow? I didn't even know what the meaning of the film itself was.. All I could thing was "where is this going to?? I mean seriously what's this movie going to be about mmm?"... and then it's about a sort of tragic lovestory and whatever but.. just nothing more... I just felt like I missed the essence of the story @_@ It was all sad though :( meh..

<3 <3 <3

(I think I'm getting a cold/ill... my throat and head hurts and I feel so shitty and tired, ugh. Might be the reason why I feel so shitty the last few days. It's been raining the whole day, this song sets the mood perfectly ;)
be sure to check that website out: http://www.fromthebasement.tv ! they have lots more awesome artists on video!)

Well, it's kinda obvious that it's weekend since I'm posting like crazy today! This is going to be the last post today ;) It will mostly contain pictures, haha, so it's an easy one!
Anyway, I'm desperate to grow my hair out, because now I'm really sure I want to go back to longer hair again (think a bobline, not really really long, I'll never be able to grow it out THAT LONG! :P). I mean, I've had all kinds of crazy haircuts and lots of colours and now I'm sick of it and want something nice and long <3

Anyway, last year I wanted to grow it out too (I did grow it out, btw! It got as long as a bob, I could even wear a little ponytail! Then I decided it was too boring and cut it into an asymetrical haircut.. again -_-' I don't like those that much anymore haha, ugh, so sick of them!) so I saved a lot of pictures with pretty, long hair, mostly red! And a lot of braids! Because I love love love LOVE braids! They're the most fantastic thing about long hair, I would wear a Heidi braid aaaaaall day if I had long hair!

( zeh pictures, image heavy! )

Mm I haven't posted in 'ages', well, comparing to how much I usually post ;)

Anyway, nothing interesting's going on. I hate how lazy I've got now I don't go to school anymore, on the other hand I loved it.... just wake up at like 12, lay in bed with your laptop till 1.30 or so, watching Gossip Girl or just hanging around on the internet... but it gets boring after a week or so! I do like the thought that I have nothing important to do, but then there's this pressure that I really need to take some actions towards a career or whatever! I really don't like that :( On the other hand, there are tons of other classmates who graduated in July and still aren't doing anything for a career, just working at a random store, like me! A friend even got hired at Subway, so, yay! :D
So I need to get this constant feeling of pressure of my shoulders and just totally relax! I have 4 days off again so I'm going to enjoy that. I'm glad I still have the 365 days project going on because that one forces me to be creative and not becoming TOO lazy. Like I have a goal every day to accomplish, and we all know how I am: I am NOT satisfied with your typical myspace selfportraits, oh no! I have the most amazing pictures in my head for when it's snowing.. but I don't even know if it's going to snow this winter... AT ALL. Sometimes I hate the Netherlands ;) But anyway, I'm still doing that project, yes. I'm not sure how long I will do it, haha, because somedays you really don't want to take a picture! Like yesterday, I was so, so, so tired but I still took the picture above, which I actually really like! :) I like how my face isn't sharp.. makes it more soft?
Can NOT wait till my hair's that long, btw! I'm so sick of my short hair, ugh, but it will take ages before it's a bit longer again. It does grow fast, but.. I want a bobline or whatever so bad :( And my hair's also still dead (well, the ends are!) and I can't find a good shampoo! And I really don't want to cut the ends off because then I have to start all over AGAIN. Sigh :( I mean, I know you can't fix dead hair but it's just very dry! I hate that :(
So, that's the goal of today: finding a GOOD (probably professional) shampoo & taking today's picture! I'm already at 60/365! :) The weather's beautiful outside so I could take a picture outside... but not sure yet :P Might be too lazy to do that haha. I'm still in bed and it's already 1.30 (PM)! Uhmmm need to get out!

Well this was a long boring rant! But eh yeah.. mm... might going to update more on my blog soon! Oh shit I also need to work on that photo album for my grandparents D: woops! Might do that monday at school, I hate how most of those photobooksites don't have software for Macs -_-'

Are there any people on Bloglovin here? If so, here's a link to my blog! Follow me, bitches! :)

(Yes I'm updating again, if you haven't noticed that by the HUGE pictures on your friendslist.. if you've added my syndicated account, that is ;) I'd rather have people comment on my blog itself than on the feed, but alas, I guess that's too much trouble for you guys :P Can't blame you, haha, but still, the feed isn't available for a long time! After a while it deletes it's posts so I can't read your comments anymore :()

Today was a wonderfully lazy day <3 The only useful things I did today were doing the laundry & taking pictures for my 365 days project. And now I'm going to cook! And after that: Gossip Girl (yup, STILL have to watch the last episode!) & Hello Kitty Chocolate & Boer Zoekt Vrouw hahaaaa :D

Haaha I've bought a new wig for my 365 days project! It might sound weird, but sometimes it's just so much fun to turn into somebody else for pictures.. plus long hair can do a lot on a picture! Aaah it looks so weird, like I just went back in time! I used to have hair like 3 years ago, exactly like this! Only it was black and not brown with weird copper highlights :'D it was really cheap and I just couldn't resist hahaha!

It's so weird having long hair! Aaah do want, do want!

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aah so weird, I want long hair NAO! XD

Busy, busy day today! I have to work 2 shifts, tomorrow from 8.30 till 11.30 (not that long, I know, but still annoying :P) and now from 16 till 20.. after that, GRADUATION PARTAAAAAYYY! Haha, and in between I had to go to the library (and found out that my bill isn't that high.. I've lost one of the books, apparently, CAN NOT FIND IT!, but decided I needed to look again because I only had to pay 3 euro if I found it @_@), to H&M (bought a dress last week with peacock print, so pretty! but it looks like garbage bag on me -_-') & had to do some grocery shopping for the before mentioned PARTAYYY (lol just love that word XD).

But now I'm annoyed because I just CAN NOT seem to find that stupid book :( I don't want to pay like.. 15 euros or something to pay for a new one :( It wasn't even that much fun, it was a really small book ughhh. But I still have an hour left before work so I'm just going to look look look and reaaaally hope I'll find it.. magically. The stupid thing is, that I'd lost it before.. and thought I had found it!! I really, really thought I had found it.. therefore I was surprised when I got a email saying that I had to hand in that book 6 weeks ago @_@ BUT NOW I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE! Have I lost it, or have the library lost it? And if I have lost it: WHERE THE FUCK IS IT? D: COME BACK TO ME BB!

I've bought energydrink for the FIRST time in my life! I hate hate hate it so much, it smells and tastes so disgusting but whatever.. I need it, I'm already really tired and I need to go on for at least another 12 hours!

PLEASE USE ALL UR POSITIVE POWERZZZ TO BRING MY BOOK BACK PLZ!

XD

Also, my Subway shirt is SO long that I could wear it as a dress, wtf! (a mini dress, okay, but still!)

Woah, I'm SO tired! Went to Rotterdam today to shop at Primark, didn't really like their clothes this time, only bought a dress and a blouse at the children's department, haha, and 4 headbands with bows (I know, crazy, but so cheap and I like them so much haha), 4 pair of tights, inlcuding one with beautiful floral print & one with lace & one with polkadots & a boring one, haha, I bought a nice scarf (zo'n col, die zo aan elkaar zit, voor maar 4 euro :D), a nice hat and ehm.. that's about it, I think? Oh and another hat! All in all I spend 40 euro at Primark, which is almost as much as I spend on a H&M dress! Because I didn't really found THE dress there, I decided to go to H&M to try the dress I had fallen in love with weeks ago! Didn't have it there (no Divided department D:), so I went to Utrecht (where I had to get out for my other train anyway!).. didn't have it their as well in the mall so I walked into the city to ANOTHER H&M where they finally had it! It's really pretty, a bit short maybe, but whatever. It's brightred, with pretty fabric and a rose on it and braided straps <3 Aaah perfect for my party! And for pictures :D AND just in general hahaha.
They also had this really nice coat at Primark, it was purple with a floral/baroque print, but the sleeves were short and it was missing one button D: Then I saw another nice one, really cheap too, with polkadots! It was perfect, except that the sleeves were REALLY short, wtf!! -_- Why would I wear a long trenchcoat with short sleeves, what's the point in that, really? Now it's way too cold, and in the summer it's way too hot to wear a long coat (with short sleeves lol)!
I'm so tired now.. god, so many people, EVERYWHERE @_@ LOL sometimes I just screamed "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH PEOPLE" in my head because I do that a lot and I'm weird u_u
ANYWAY, pictures will be up soon :)

- Flickr is down and it ANNOYS ME SO MUCH. I need my daily Flickrfix! Plus I need to upload my 365 project picture! (Not that I've made it yet, lol, but in case it keeps down for hours!) Also, I had my camera with me to Rotterdam, only to find out that I kept my battery at home -_-' DOH! It was such a beautiful day to take pictures! It's also weird that I now have 'all' the time to focus on my 365 days project!
- My hair is doing weird things, it's not funny. On top of my head, hairdye hardly gets in my hair! It is now brown with red.. it's so weird! But the same thing happened with the henna, so I guess there was nothing wrong with the hennamix I made, because now it's happening again! It's only the parts that have been bleached.. and I've never had this before.. the ends are brown/white/see-through-ish.. haha, reaaaaally weird! It's not really dead or anything though, it just doesn't hold colour any more I guess? Because it's so porous! I only had this one time before and that has been like 4 years ago.. whenI got my hair bleached from black to red at the hairdresser. After that, I always had this spot that didn't held colour, which was really odd... the rest of my hair did hold colour, while it had been bleached as well! But that just didn't, haha.
So basically I'm screwed, because I'm sure it will only go away when it's cut off and I really don't want that :( I can't really photograph it... it's only really visible at really strong light.. like in a H&M fittingroom ;)

Lol I did take photo with my phone of it XD

WAIT HERE IT IS:

And here's a very crapy picture of my new dress, I swear it looks SO much better irl! And yeah it's short, but it's not too short! Haha.. I'm just those kind of people with a long upperbody and really short legs D: I hate it, but alas... this dress makes my legs look really long though! :D



again, so much prettier irl! better picture tomorrow! :)

Now I'm going to dl the new Gossip Girl eps & maybe watch Brideshead Revisited OR Miss Little Sunshine OR Gossip Girl! Aaah the endless opportunities now school's over <3

Am I going crazy or is that button 'different' than usual? Or has it always been there (saying hallo/hello)? BECAUSE REALLY, I DON'T KNOW! Lol I can't remember what it normally says, or that it has always said this. I'm just noticing this right now @_@

Also, my bookcovers are finished, yay! Now I have to do the posters, which are basically just cutouts of the covers, so not that much work (although they need more text I guess). I'm also thinking about making some eh.. boekenleggers, I have NO clue what they're called in English, neither has Babelfish or Google! You know, those papers you lie into a book so you know at which page you were ;D Anyway, it could be a nice touch, on the other hand, I'm still using the same images every time, because I don't have other ones! I could use the 'normal' pictures in colour for the book thingies but then it might be a total different style and.. not fit in, you know? Oh heck, I can always try and see later what I'm going to do with them! It could be a nice touch to my concept :)

I've been stuck with this song for days:



I also love love love Calvin Harris, God his music keeps me going for HOURS! I remember discovering his music when I had to write my thesis, omg! I spend hours bouncing behind my laptop, trying to write something, while being awfully distracted and bouncy because of his music, lol! But this time I don't have to write, just have to 'make'... and his music (& The Chemical Brothers!) are perfect for that! Specially for things at the computer that require no feelings, lol, that require only motivation ;) When I want inspiration I'd rather listen to Interpol or something ~*gloomy*~ like that ;D
Lol but seriously guys, I just don't know what his music does to me but it gives me way too much energy!

LAST POST OF TODAY I PROMISE!

ALSO I'm FINALLY downloading Brideshead Revisited YAY for Matthew Goode & Ben Wishaw MAN ON MAN ACTION! Lol I sound like a filthy pervert right now but I don't care, I love them both so much! If only Lee Pace was in it too.. aaah..

- I've dyed my hair, yes, I like it! Although there's a bit of the same problem with henna.. on top of my hair, the ends aren't that bright.. but they are really light, where the blonde's coming through! It's sooo weird, even the henna didn't 'fill' it.. so maybe it's just that the hair there is SO damaged that it doesn't even hold colour anymore? Weird shit man!
- Also, I'm SO glad my hair's getting longer so fast <3 Five weeks ago it still looked like this, omg look at the back D: it has grown lots now though :D
- Today there was a rainbow in my bedroom, look!
- Only 2 days left till my assessment (for school), omg, I'm so scared, yet also a bit nervous and ugh D: On the other hand, can't wait for it to be over!
- I also want to thank you guys for the help on my last posts, you've been amazing! :D
- I thought I had more to talk about but.. I forgot it, or something? SHORT POST IS SHORT! If I come up with anything else, I'll edit ;)
- Now: Benelux Next Top Model (lol lame dutch version of ANTM ;D) & more schoolwork D: I also need to clean up my room SO BAD!! Will do that tomorrow a.s.a.p.!

OKAY LAST TIME, what about this one? It's completely different than the other ones and super, super simple.. but classy, and I just like that?? I don't know, I really like it, but I feel it might be too simple, too cliché? On the other hand.. it just works! I can't find anything else that works, besides this one, but I can't seem to find the right colour and when I use that font in white, you can hardly read a thing D: I've also done some research on bookcovers, thanks to babsie ;) And I found out that, when the covers are black & white, the text most of the time is too! I now understand why, colour is way too .. noticable? So it takes away from the image itself.. on the other hand.. in 3 years ago in class I made a poster in black & white, just like this.. with white font and they (other teachers) thought it was too boring :s But on the other hand, these images are just in black & white anyway and I can't change that and I'm not sure if a coloured font would make it better, right?

TELL ME YOUR THOUGHTS!

(btw, I cut because it was a bookcover and it's all about the front of the cover, so this part! the other images seemed to confuse people because of the space and stuff :P)

Y/N?

You've been a great help you guys, really!

Mm or should I make it.. like blue? Like ( this? )

Hey bbs, I need your help with some schoolstuff! I've been busy with some typography for my pictures, but I can't decide between these two fonts, they're so different! I like them both and then I don't like them both, idk!

Please don't mind the typography it self, the colour, placement and all that jazz, it's still very sketchy! But if you have any suggestion, I am open for it! But just wanted to let you that this is NOT the final result ;)

( pikshurz! )

Seriously guys, I only listen to the radio at work and aargh it's been influencing me and now I like this song lololol which is kinda.. idk, trashy? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? D: I still hate Lady Gaga though XD LOL but I just thought that it was the singer from Metric, specially in the first verse, it just sounds like here! (not in the rest of the song.. okay to be honest I only like the first verse of the song lolol) And then I googled her and I found out that she wasn't in this song BUT she is in a new song of Tiesto D: D: D: My words: do not want! This is the song btw, I mean, I love Metric, BUT TIESTO??? D:

Anyway, this is a post where you can recommend me some awesome new music, plz ;D I'm going to listen to the Kills now while working at schoolwork, haven't listened to them in a long time, omg <3

My favourite silkscreenprint! :) Maybe the contrast is a bit too high, need to edit it a bit, I think? But I really like it! I'm still at school, at the graphics workplace (not sure if you call it like that in english? anyway, the printing place.. as in.. oldschool printing, woodcuts and stuff ;D), cutting out the prints, I've been scanning them and I just tried something with letters but it sucked, which I already thought of it would, but it's more like 'research', you know ;) Like: look, I've tried this as well!

Oh man, I'm so ready to be... ready with school! I do love hanging out here and when I'm finally graduated, I'll definitely be in the printing workplace often! But just .. for fun, you know? I love it! Can't wait to silkscreen more, or printing woodcuts <3

I have a sort of positive feeling about Monday (my assessment), I didn't have that the last time. I do know that, what I've created now is much better then before! But is it good enough for a higher grade? I don't know! Well I really hope it is, because I only need ONE point up! But this I've done more and I've got more to show them and better stuff and all I have to do now is make GREAT typography AND a great presentation, with professional looking things you know? I'll probably be at the computerroom all saturday, printing my ass off :'D

Another photo I really like, only not one for school but for my 365 days project.. took it yesterday! I think I want to take another one, only with red leaves and red hair and a crown like "Where The Wild Things Are" :D



:) Now I'm off, cutting more images and then go home and eat some homemade apples by my mom (it's called "hete bliksem" for you dutch people, it's really yummy! :D), probably dye my hair lol and work a bit on my typography! And then meeting some friends! :) I'm glad I still see my old classmates so often and that we've stayed close! :)

Also, it was soo warm in the train and I'm so drowsy right now.. like I want to sleep forever lol D:

I know you like posts with pictures, COME ON YOU DO LIKE THOSE THE MOST! I do too ;)

& God, it's obvious I'm at art school again: the smell of hairspray is EVERYWHERE D: It's stuck in my nose, lol!

EDIT: FUCK THE PICTURES ARE BIG SORRY MY BATTERY IS ALMOST EMPTY SO I CAN'T EDIT IT IN TIME I THINK :(